The ghost in my life never frightened me
unless I wanted it to — the constant
shadow never caught me by surprise,
I always knew it was there — perhaps
I should have spent more of my time
reading about anything else, or trying
to commit other facts to memory,
something more job-related?
But the hooks got right in, and sat
under my skin. I’ve been held in its
sway for all of my life. Could not imagine
it — nor would I want to — any other way.